Sep 14, 2021
I recently had to move houses. People move every day all day, but it was a different kind of move for me, because this is the first time ever in my grown up life that I had moved somewhere smaller. All of my life I've been progressively living the dream where every time I moved, it was to a bigger and a better house.
Now as circumstances would have it, we ended up having to temporarily move into a smaller place while we wait for a year and a half for our permanent house to be built.
So we knew that all of the stuff that we had in our old place wasn't going to fit. I really thought that we would just get a storage locker to put all our stuff that wouldn't fit. But we got to this new place, and my husband said, “Alright, we're here now. And I have one rule: whatever fits, fits, whatever doesn't fit, we're donating or recycling.”
I wanted to keep everything. And one of the things that I found is I had stuff I didn't even know I had, I had stuff that I hadn't looked at in years, I had clothes that still had the price tags on them that I'd never worn from stores that have long since closed.
As my husband told me to get rid of my things, I found myself getting more and more anxious. I felt like I was going to have an anxiety attack with the thought of having to get rid of these things that I paid for, that I wanted. But it was time for us to declutter. It's time for us to make space in our life.
I realized that I was in a lot of stress of having to let go of all of these things. This led to me introspecting why I was feeling like this. Why did a simple act of donating stuff, getting rid of stuff, recycling stuff, bring up so much fear and anxiety?
It was in meditation that it came to me. Through rest and reflection, I realized the power of spending time asking yourself questions. What came to me was something that I thought I had dealt with years ago, something from my childhood and upbringing. The deeper reason for my anxiety and feeling the need to hold on to all my things is rooted deep into my subconscious.
In this episode, I share why we should question ourselves from a perspective of curiosity to understand the deeper reason of our actions that root from our subconscious mind.